Jun 71 minDown here on earthI cut my left hand this morning. It was nothing serious, but it warranted the use of antiseptic spray. As I got the bottle out of the...
Jun 12 minNo caveat(s) neededToday, as I sat on a bench in the backyard, I was overcome with gratitude. I admired a happy Noodle, a beautiful sky, plants in bloom,...
Mar 213 minA little birdieI approached the window just in time to see half of my favorite tree topple to the ground. I stood there, mouth agape in disbelief, as I...
Nov 6, 20214 minGet outta here!Though I’m delayed, I’m sure this post will surprise just about nobody. The Braves are World Series Champions! In some ways, it feels...
Oct 7, 20212 minLeaves a markEarlier this week I let the dogs out for their nighttime pee in the drizzling rain. My dog Noodle was lollygagging around, so I tried to...
Sep 2, 20213 minWhether the weather is coldLast night I was texting with one of my friends who is also a widow. (Will saying that ever feel normal?) She was having a rough day on...
Jan 20, 20214 minThe gossip on grief: Six months laterGrief is powerful. In fact, it's so mighty it has rendered society largely incapable of discussing it. Today marks 6 months of widowhood.
Dec 20, 20201 minnine years - five years - five monthsNine years ago, to the day, I met this guy for our first date. Five years ago, to the day, I married this guy. Five months ago, to the...
Dec 1, 20202 minAll is fairLast week, after checking my temperature, the dental hygienist led me to my exam room. “How’s your husband doing?” she asked with the...
Oct 25, 20202 minThank you for everythingA friend gifted me this leather bracelet in August. She conspired to get a sample of Ramón’s handwriting, and my mom had a note from...
Sep 25, 20201 minHow am I doing?How am I doing? Well, I’m exploring new places through travel, music, and books. I’m sitting on hold with countless financial...
Aug 5, 20203 minAn August of opportunityThough I’ve been writing regularly, I haven’t posted much lately. This is mostly for good reason. For example, my friend Elaine came back...
Jul 27, 20202 minOne weekIt’s been one week since we said goodbye to Ramón, and it’s been more than 14 weeks since I said farewell to the version of Ramón I’d...
Jul 12, 20202 minDay +93 (today): Hospital Day 100 (yesterday)Today is day +93 since transplant, and yesterday was Ramón’s 100th consecutive day in the hospital. Though each individual day has felt...
Jun 25, 20203 minDay +76: Mashed potatoesThis morning, day +76, while walking the dogs, my mom turned to me and asked, “Did I tell you about the dream where I was feeding Ramón...
Jun 6, 20201 minDay +57: Breathtaking sunsetSaturday into Sunday has become my toughest time of the week. It makes me reflect on "the night" when Ramón was feeling indescribably...
Jun 5, 20202 minThank you, Atlanta Braves!Day +54: Keep swinging June 3, 2020 You know when you’re just staring at the computer screen, deciding what to say to Hank Aaron? Do you...
May 26, 20203 minDay +46: Life is hard.The past several weeks have been, without a doubt, the most difficult time of my life. Each day, I have been hopeful that Ramón’s status...
Apr 28, 20203 minDays +12, 15, and 18 Day +12: A turtle's pace April 22, 2020 Though time has been moving at the speed of molasses, it’s moving, and that’s the most important...
Apr 19, 20202 minDay +9: Cloud not-so-nineToday has been, by far, the scariest day of my life. This morning, at about 5:25, Ramón lost his airway, most likely due to swelling...